You know that guy I said I was with? Well not even a month he ended up breaking up with me. It started out him ignoring me, again, at school. Which honestly pissed me off. Then it was like he was trying to avoid me and was hanging around another chick... Never a good sign. I go to his house, and talk to him... he breaks up with me.
I don't understand teenagers. I found out a week later that he had been cheating on me with the chick he was hanging around.
I still don't think he knows how much he really broke my heart. Now he is dating one of his ex's again and I was starting to become friends with her. I had told her about how bad he hurt me. Oh well.
Thing is I still care a lot about the boy! But I can never be with him again. It hurts so much... I see him kiss her and I die inside. I wish I was the one he was kissing. I see him hold her and I want to rip them apart. He should be holding me.
Why do guys always break your heart? Is it their nature? I mean really...
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Boys
It's about time I wrote about this. You knew it was coming I mean come on! It's a teen girls blog lol.
Okay. I fell for this guy. He is amazing. And yes, hot too lol! But his best friend, and mine too, loved him before me. Problem was he didn't like her like she liked him. He liked me. Long story short I went out with him. I got her over at my house the day after and told her in person about it. Well, she said it was all cool, she was just glad that he was with someone who wouldn't hurt him. End of my problems right? Wrong!
A month or so in the relationship he started hanging out with her again. I was cool with it I mean they were best friends after all. Who was I to try to break apart their friendship? I didn't get that much time with him when school started back. Everyday during the class where I just had her in it she would tell me how awesome he was, how much fun they had hanging out, how they texted all the time blah, blah, blah. Well needless to say it started to piss me off. My last relationship the guy I fell head over heels for fell in love with his bff and I heard how much better she was than me and what not. So I told them about that and how the reason I was pissed off was because this relationship was starting to make me feel like that one did. Except the guy I was falling for didn't like the bff that way.
She didn't stop. So what did I do? I broke up with him so I wouldn't ruin any of our friendships. A day or two later she was talking about dating him. I could have rung her neck I swear. That weekend me and the guy texted three days straight almost. It was great! I still liked him and hated not being with him.
Not even a week from being broken up we are now back together. Am I crazy? I don't think so. The only reason was because the girl wouldn't shut up. I decided you can never reason with a child so why shouldn't I date the dude I liked? I like him, he likes me. Why should I let her keep me from being happy? I shouldn't. Why did I write this blog entry? I'm bored and finally decided to type it out to get it out of my system lol. Till next time.
SR
Okay. I fell for this guy. He is amazing. And yes, hot too lol! But his best friend, and mine too, loved him before me. Problem was he didn't like her like she liked him. He liked me. Long story short I went out with him. I got her over at my house the day after and told her in person about it. Well, she said it was all cool, she was just glad that he was with someone who wouldn't hurt him. End of my problems right? Wrong!
A month or so in the relationship he started hanging out with her again. I was cool with it I mean they were best friends after all. Who was I to try to break apart their friendship? I didn't get that much time with him when school started back. Everyday during the class where I just had her in it she would tell me how awesome he was, how much fun they had hanging out, how they texted all the time blah, blah, blah. Well needless to say it started to piss me off. My last relationship the guy I fell head over heels for fell in love with his bff and I heard how much better she was than me and what not. So I told them about that and how the reason I was pissed off was because this relationship was starting to make me feel like that one did. Except the guy I was falling for didn't like the bff that way.
She didn't stop. So what did I do? I broke up with him so I wouldn't ruin any of our friendships. A day or two later she was talking about dating him. I could have rung her neck I swear. That weekend me and the guy texted three days straight almost. It was great! I still liked him and hated not being with him.
Not even a week from being broken up we are now back together. Am I crazy? I don't think so. The only reason was because the girl wouldn't shut up. I decided you can never reason with a child so why shouldn't I date the dude I liked? I like him, he likes me. Why should I let her keep me from being happy? I shouldn't. Why did I write this blog entry? I'm bored and finally decided to type it out to get it out of my system lol. Till next time.
SR
Saturday, February 5, 2011
WoW uPdAtE
I haven't been on this thing in forever. First off I would like to have a moment of silence for two people I lost recently. Patricia Barfield: 11-11-2010 and Jake Miller: 10-16-2010.
*moment of silence*
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Now for an update. I am no longer homeschooled due to events that have happened in my life. It was purely my choice and was a pretty good one at that if I don't say so myself. I am now attending QCHS and have made a TON of new friends. We even have our own group that I helped create! The Animal Pack! Members include: The Musically Sadistic Ferret, Pegasus/Charlie the Unicorn, Bunny Wiggles The Super Bunny, and Paco The Mexican Super Penguin (me... don't ask).
A lot of things have change in my life. I've become a stronger person, I've learned how grief and true heartache feels, and I've also learned the importance of having friends! I will probably write more detailed blogs on those subjects at a later date. This was just an update for any readers out there. I promise this blog will become more interesting as time goes by!
Thank you for reading this random update!
SR
*moment of silence*
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Now for an update. I am no longer homeschooled due to events that have happened in my life. It was purely my choice and was a pretty good one at that if I don't say so myself. I am now attending QCHS and have made a TON of new friends. We even have our own group that I helped create! The Animal Pack! Members include: The Musically Sadistic Ferret, Pegasus/Charlie the Unicorn, Bunny Wiggles The Super Bunny, and Paco The Mexican Super Penguin (me... don't ask).
A lot of things have change in my life. I've become a stronger person, I've learned how grief and true heartache feels, and I've also learned the importance of having friends! I will probably write more detailed blogs on those subjects at a later date. This was just an update for any readers out there. I promise this blog will become more interesting as time goes by!
Thank you for reading this random update!
SR
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Joy comes so simply sometimes...
Okay so I found out that I can get hyper really easily. If one of my friends are hyper, I get hyper. If I get in a really good mood, hearing just the right song can get me hyper. Or, like today, having something REALLY exciting to look forward to the next day REALLY gets me hyper. Tomorrow I am traveling to Dallas with my churches youth group. How can I be so hyper? Well, my Best Friend Dee and Boyfriend Sandman get to come with me!!! We get to go shopping and ice skating in a mall! Now why so happy about it, well because I have not gotten to do something like this with those two for a LONG time!!!!!! I'm so happy! Has anyone else had an exciting summer?
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
In The End
As I sit here wondering what to type. I sit and listen to the words of Linkin Park,hoping beyond hope that it will spark something in me to type up the best story ever written.But alas, I know that is impossible. I may be able to create the best story of the year, or the month even, but there have been too many great books in this world, that I couldn't possibly compete with them. The masters of story telling, to me, are writers such as Stephen King (the all time master of literature), S.E. Hinton, Edger Allen Poe, William Shakespeare, James Patterson, P.C. Cast+Kristin Cast, and Ellen Shreiber. Those are a few of my favorites atleast. The main one I would be honored to meet is Stephen King. To me he is the master of allwriters! His stories are filled with such emotion, such horror, such beauty, if I were to write a book that came at least a fraction close to his great works I would be overjoyed! But alas, there lays the problem, I have yet to complete a single work that I have started. I had one story that I thought would make it in the world of famous literature. I had started writing it when I was fourteen or fifteen. But I found out how terrible it really was when I picked it up recently and reread it. I found many errors. After reading half of it I just threw it down. I couldn't stomach reading anymore. It was an embarressment!
I have been trying to think of the greatest story ever. I have written down ideas that, if linked together in just the right way would create an amazing novel! (Not one as good as Stephen King's, but still, exceptable.) But after writing down the little paragraphs of information, I have yet to come up with a way to link them together. Every time I try to think of a story my mind goes blank. It's like it is trying to tell me that I'm either not ready to write a novel, or that it is impossible for me. I feel like I have lost my imagination. I use to come up with so many mini stories in my head! I had imaginary friends, I would play out my stories, I would create fan fictions in my mind. But this year, I have yet to come up with even a full character!
Has my imagination run from me? Have I lost all ability to imagine stories and characters? Will I ever be able to write and complete a great novel? I don't know the answer to any of these questions, but I wish I did. Hopefully one day my imagination will return or become more active, and I will be able to write more. Until then I sit and ponder until my mind feels like it is going to explode! In the end, I will either break out of this imagineless depression, or I will forever put myself down, and never attempt to recreate my imagination!
I have been trying to think of the greatest story ever. I have written down ideas that, if linked together in just the right way would create an amazing novel! (Not one as good as Stephen King's, but still, exceptable.) But after writing down the little paragraphs of information, I have yet to come up with a way to link them together. Every time I try to think of a story my mind goes blank. It's like it is trying to tell me that I'm either not ready to write a novel, or that it is impossible for me. I feel like I have lost my imagination. I use to come up with so many mini stories in my head! I had imaginary friends, I would play out my stories, I would create fan fictions in my mind. But this year, I have yet to come up with even a full character!
Has my imagination run from me? Have I lost all ability to imagine stories and characters? Will I ever be able to write and complete a great novel? I don't know the answer to any of these questions, but I wish I did. Hopefully one day my imagination will return or become more active, and I will be able to write more. Until then I sit and ponder until my mind feels like it is going to explode! In the end, I will either break out of this imagineless depression, or I will forever put myself down, and never attempt to recreate my imagination!
Art
Art is great. You can do just about anything with art. You can draw, paint, do digital art, use paint program on your computer, and even photography is considered a form of art! The fun thing is, if you do any of that, you can do it however way you want and it will STILL be art! And don't thing there is something wrong with being an artist. Because there's NOT! You may be ridiculed by others for the things you create but don't let it bother you. "Normal" people will never understand the nature of us artists. And you don't even have to do the things I've listed above to be an artist. You can be an artist and show off creativity through your clothes or music, even writing! So just remember, if someone ridicules you for being you, just ignore and try not to let it bother you!
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