Joy comes so simply sometimes...

Okay so I found out that I can get hyper really easily. If one of my friends are hyper, I get hyper. If I get in a really good mood, hearing just the right song can get me hyper. Or, like today, having something REALLY exciting to look forward to the next day REALLY gets me hyper. Tomorrow I am traveling to Dallas with my churches youth group. How can I be so hyper? Well, my Best Friend Dee and Boyfriend Sandman get to come with me!!! We get to go shopping and ice skating in a mall! Now why so happy about it, well because I have not gotten to do something like this with those two for a LONG time!!!!!! I'm so happy! Has anyone else had an exciting summer?

In The End

As I sit here wondering what to type. I sit and listen to the words of Linkin Park,hoping beyond hope that it will spark something in me to type up the best story ever written.But alas, I know that is impossible. I may be able to create the best story of the year, or the month even, but there have been too many great books in this world, that I couldn't possibly compete with them. The masters of story telling, to me, are writers such as Stephen King (the all time master of literature), S.E. Hinton, Edger Allen Poe, William Shakespeare, James Patterson, P.C. Cast+Kristin Cast, and Ellen Shreiber. Those are a few of my favorites atleast. The main one I would be honored to meet is Stephen King. To me he is the master of allwriters! His stories are filled with such emotion, such horror, such beauty, if I were to write a book that came at least a fraction close to his great works I would be overjoyed! But alas, there lays the problem, I have yet to complete a single work that I have started. I had one story that I thought would make it in the world of famous literature. I had started writing it when I was fourteen or fifteen. But I found out how terrible it really was when I picked it up recently and reread it. I found many errors. After reading half of it I just threw it down. I couldn't stomach reading anymore. It was an embarressment!
I have been trying to think of the greatest story ever. I have written down ideas that, if linked together in just the right way would create an amazing novel! (Not one as good as Stephen King's, but still, exceptable.) But after writing down the little paragraphs of information, I have yet to come up with a way to link them together. Every time I try to think of a story my mind goes blank. It's like it is trying to tell me that I'm either not ready to write a novel, or that it is impossible for me. I feel like I have lost my imagination. I use to come up with so many mini stories in my head! I had imaginary friends, I would play out my stories, I would create fan fictions in my mind. But this year, I have yet to come up with even a full character!
Has my imagination run from me? Have I lost all ability to imagine stories and characters? Will I ever be able to write and complete a great novel? I don't know the answer to any of these questions, but I wish I did. Hopefully one day my imagination will return or become more active, and I will be able to write more. Until then I sit and ponder until my mind feels like it is going to explode! In the end, I will either break out of this imagineless depression, or I will forever put myself down, and never attempt to recreate my imagination!

Art

Art is great. You can do just about anything with art. You can draw, paint, do digital art, use paint program on your computer, and even photography is considered a form of art! The fun thing is, if you do any of that, you can do it however way you want and it will STILL be art! And don't thing there is something wrong with being an artist. Because there's NOT! You may be ridiculed by others for the things you create but don't let it bother you. "Normal" people will never understand the nature of us artists. And you don't even have to do the things I've listed above to be an artist. You can be an artist and show off creativity through your clothes or music, even writing! So just remember, if someone ridicules you for being you, just ignore and try not to let it bother you!

Horror, gore, and scary films...

I use to HATE scary, gore-filled, horror films, but after I turned fifteen and met the love of my life (who LOVES those type of movies) I started watching them and found that I liked them!
I had always gotten nightmares after watching those types of movies... they just scared me. It took me fifteen years to get over my nightmares...which is kind of embarressing but whatever. The first "scary" movie I watched was Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street. Many may say that movie was freaky, weird, not scary, stupid because it was a musical blah, blah, blah. But you know what... I don't care! I loved the movie. It had Johnny Depp in it! How could you not love it? Plus it was directed by Tim Burton and stared Helena Bonham Carter, and Alan Rickman in it! When I heard Johnny sing I melted, his voice is amazing!
Anyway, then I gave the Saw series a try. And guess what I found out? I found out that I liked them too! I am a total fan of the Saw movies now. I mean I like them SO much that on Halloween I dressed up as the Jigsaw dummy!
A few more good movies are Dead Silence, Drag Me To Hell, the Alien series, the Predator series, District 9 and a ton more. Now you may be saying that some of these aren't even scary. Which you are right, but before I met Sandman I would have NEVER watched these movies. I now I was a baby, but whatever! That was the past and now I am here, and I am watching awesome movies!
What do you think of these movies and types of movies?

Question...

How do you customize your blog background? I can't seem to figure out how to personalize it. I am just using the default stuff that is originally offered... can anyone help me?

Homeschooled and ahead!!!

Okay so yes I am homeschooled. Does that make me stupid? No! Actually it makes me smart...I'm not being full of myself, just think about it. I don't have to deal with teachers, or bullies, or peer pressure or anything! Plus I get one on one with my school work, and can work at my own pace. It's actually quite enjoyable. I am 16 and ending my junior year! I get to graduate earlier than others my age.
Right now I am working on finishing up Geometry. I usually HATE, like uberly hate, math, but Geometry actually has it's moments where it isn't too horrid! It is actually easy most of the time. Also, with me being homeschooled I can choose the classes I take and make my own graduation!
Later this month I get to take an online photography course. It is only six weeks, but I will still get credit for college! And for my graduation I can plan it to be whereever I want it to be! And when ever I want! I am thinking about having it at my boyfriend's Dad's church where a lot of the other homeschoolers have had theirs. Or I could try to have it at my old church! Idk, I'm still trying to figure it out! :-)
Anyways, this was pretty much just a rambling blog entry!
Have a nice day!

SR

Have you ever....

Have you ever had a total and unexplanable break-down?
Example:
Yesterday my mind was jumbled with so much stuff just flying around it, I thought it was going to explode! I just couldn't for the life of me, organize my thoughts. I was thinking about my future, my friends, getting a tattoo, how I failed a geometry test and had to retake it that night, how I just wanted to hang out with my friends, what I was going to do about my art, and work after I graduated. Thinking about what I should do about my graduation, I had to draw somethings for contests of deviantArt, I had to finish a project to give to my friend, there were things I wanted to buy but that I couldn't buy them because I had to pay someone back for something. UGH I was just going crazy!
So after my bf went back to work I went in my room, sat on my bed, and cried. I cried harder than I have ever cried before. I was even screaming. I know this all sounds so dramatic, but my mind was so jumbled with stuff that crying and screaming was the only thing I could do. So the rest of the day I was frustrated because of the way I felt.
But after talking to Jake about it and talking to my bf Hannah about it, distracting myself with a video game and getting some much needed sleep, I now feel better. But there is still that feeling in the back of my mind. Telling me that once I let my guard down, it's going to come back and I will break-down yet again.

Has anyone else ever felt that way or am I alone in this?

Tattoos

Okay so this is a subject most to all parents would look down upon. But I am here to talk from experience, sorta.
If you are planning on getting a tattoo, make sure to THINK about it really good! I've been dying to get a tattoo since I was little. I have the chance to get one whenever now because my brother is doing tattoos. But the thing is I can't decide. I keep thinking I'm ready and have figured out the design I want and then I think of another design. So what I did to keep from going insane or getting something I would get bored with after a while was I decided to wait till after I turned 18 to decide.
The thing is I know what I want! I just want too much and can't decide on which one to get first!
So for all you teens out there who want a tattoo and are getting frustrated, because you can't decide exactly what you want yet... just wait! Wait until you turn eighteen. Till school and the effects of hormones and what not are out of the way!

Halo obsession...

Okay, so my bf is TOTALLY obsessed with Halo. No not the angel halo, or Beyonce's song halo... I'm talking about the game series. He owns Halo 1-3, Halo Wars, Halo 3 ODST, a ton of Halo legos, Halo actionclix, Halo Board Game, and Halo Wars risk. He also has a Halo poster, Halo pajamas and a Halo t-shirt.
Now you see how he is obsessed! But, he is not the only one. He is slowly but, I think, surely turning me. Is that a bad thing... to some people yes, it is a bad thing, to me... Not so much! I kind of like it! Halo is fun. I have beaten Halo 1-3 and just started Halo Wars! I don't discourage this obsession, because I like the games too. Oh and I forgot he also has a Halo book series, Halo Encyclopedia, and Halo Legends, the first Halo movie ever. Have I watched it? Yes. Was it good? Definitely!
So, are there any other Halo obsessed people out there? Or anyone with questions concerning this world wide gaming phenomena?

SR

Anime... Ain't it great?! XD

Okay... so I haven't seen a lot of it... but I definitely love it! Anime, manga, there is just something about it that draws me to it. It's awesome! XD I have watched Inuyasha, Wolf's Rain, One Piece, Full Metal Alchemist, Devil May Cry, Death Note, and some of Naruto... and I think that is all so far. I haven't completed all of the series' yet. But they are really good so far. One day after I move out and get settled in to my own home, I plan on starting to cosplay my favorite characters!
What do you think of Anime's? And which one's are you favorites?!

SR

Sickness... Does it ever make sense?

It's odd how, even though you take medicine that fits your symptoms, they seem to grow. Why is it that a simple aching throat could turn into a cold? It would seem that if you take medicine for it, it would disappear and leave you alone. But not the case all the time.
My throat started out just hurting some. I started to take some medicine for it. Well, two days later I have a stuffy nose, the pain in my throat has grown, drainage has appeared, coughing attacked, ear pain accompanied, and a stopped up nose has started to form!
I know, ya'll probably didn't want to know all that, but it just amazes me. How? Because the doctors tell you if you catch the sickness as it is starting, and you begin to treat it immediately, then you can "stop it in it's tracks!" But a better saying for me is "it always get worse, before it gets better." Is this the first time that such a small pain turned into a full on sickness? No. A while back (like a year or so ago), I was having some troubles (forgot the symptoms I had), but it reminded the doctors of Mono. So, they immediately tested me for it. They didn't find anything.
Well, I come back a week later, still feeling like crud, and they test me again. Guess what?! ...
They found signs of mono in my blood. Yipee. I got worse.
But I guess it isn't a bad thing, or maybe it is, whatever. Either way, it is something I have to get use to I guess.
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End of transmission...

SR

2:24 And still, sleep escapes me.

Sleep has still stayed at the brim of my consciousness. Why won't it come foward and ingulf me?! The one time it has all the permission to take over and put me under that comforting blanket of darkness and sweet dreams...and it taunts me by making me feel sleepy, but not letting me fall asleep. Is it because I am sick? Probably, but still, when you are sick aren't you suppose to be able to go to sleep faster? This is what confuses me. Maybe I am just odd. I am the opposite of most people, maybe.
Oh sleep come to me, my thoat has stopped it's aching, the coughs have subsided, but yet I am still awake! I have tried to do things that usually make me tired and want to sleep. I played Halo, I have been on my computer for a while now, if you count the total hours of usage today that is.
Well, maybe it shall come to me soon. Hopefully really soon. That or tomorrow will be the first day that I sleep till noon...naw, that probably won't happen. I guess we will see tomorrow huh?
Goodnight and sleep tight Blogger.com!

SR

Entry 1... hee hee I'm excited!!

Okay! First entry to my latest, and hopefully to become, my greatest blog!
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I have absolutely no idea what to talk about now.
... *sound of crickets*
*clears throat... or tries*
Well, for one thing I am sick. I have some kind of stupid throat thing-a-ma-bob, and it really sucks. It is like 1:46 a.m and I am AWAKE!!! I guess it is a good thing I get to sleep in tomorrow. But, I have the luck where if I get to sleep in I wake up early. ... Yeah, it's weird.
Maybe I should start off this blog telling you, the readers, about myself huh?!

Well, I am 16 years old. I am starting this blog in hopes to get some popularity on the interweb. You see I dream of becoming a writer...or hope to become a writer, artist, animator, photography, model, designer, or something creative and fun like that...but to start I am going to try writing a blog and see how that starts out.
If I up and disappear on you, then you should now I probably forgot about this thing. Being so early in the morning and all, I don't know if I will remember anything right now! Ha!
Okay back to telling you about me.

I was born in Southern California, but I was raised, mostly, in a small, dull, town in North East Texas. We are such a small town, we are not on a map, just the town above us is. I am homeschooled. I have been homeschooled since the seventh grade. Why? Because I got sick and tired of the annoying tards at public school. I'm not saying everyone is bad, but there are a lot of people who would be more tolerable if they acted..what are the words I'm looking for...intelligent? Excepting? Idk, I just know that they could have acted and talked a lot better than they did if they tried.
I have my drivers license and a car already! Yeah me! (as Londan Tipton of the Suite Life would say). I got lucky enough to get my sister-in-laws old car because after I got my license she got a new car. I think they planned it and let me think it was some weird accident. ;)
Along with art, I like to look at cars, listen to all sorts of music (mostly rock, alternative, and... well that's about it of the major music on my i-pod... oh yeah and some classical), I like to be on the internet (obviously), hanging out with my friends, I like to play sports (even though with homeschooling you have less chances to do so, that is unless you like ballet and gymnastics... I'm not that big of a fan in participating in those events), and let's see... Oh yeah! I also have started becoming a video game nerd. Right now I am still a noob, but just wait! I will become great! (maybe) Okay so there is a lot more stuff about me, but I think I might end up boring ya'll with the details so this is the end of this post!

SR